Today's Interviews

   So today was the day of my two teaching interviews. I was very excited for today's events. I had a Kindergarten and 5th grade interview at two different places.  I went in being much more excited about the 5th grade than the K position, but I left just the opposite. I am really hoping now to get that Kindergarten position. 

   When I first moved to teaching second grade, it was because I felt that the Kindergartners were just a little too small for me.  However, I have recently had a change of heart. Not that I would mind teaching the older ones-there are great things about that too.  But things with the small ones are just so basic. And I love that. Letter sounds, numbers, color words. So much fun!

   I think the bottom line is that I will be ok with any grade I should get at this point. I would, however, be extra excited if the Kinder position was granted to me.  I loved the school. It was beautiful and the both the principal and assistant principal were so nice!    I am not sure when they are supposed to be making their choices, but I hope it is soon. Waiting isn't exactly my forte!

Things are becoming clearer...

    These are counting bears.  They represent who I am in a way.  You see, these are used in schools to teach all kinds of things-counting, patterns, sorting, etc.  I love these bears.  I have used them for a TON of lessons. They are my go to.  These help fuel my love for teaching-the kids love them, I love them.

    I have been on a quest to figure out what I need to be doing in life.  I taught school, then left that, only to discover it is what I should be doing after all.  So, I began the task of finding a teaching job after the year had started-one I was not sure would bring me much luck.  

   Not only did it bring me some luck, it brought me more than I thought. I have two interviews for a teaching position tomorrow-and they could not be any more different! One is 5th grade, mostly Caucasian kids, teaching Language arts with 2 classes-one of boys and one of girls.  The other is teaching Kindergarten, all subjects, with a class of mostly African-American students. Wow!  

   I tell ya though, I am just so excited for tomorrow, I'm not sure I can sleep! Well, that may be a bit much...I can always sleep! :o) Either way though, I am so happy for these opportunities!

Confusion...

How does anyone figure out where they are supposed to be? So many times I feel like I should be teaching. At other times, I feel like I should try and figure out this marketing position I am.

I miss teaching-I feel that it allows me to tap into certain things I like. I get to be creative, help kids learn. It has crayons and construction paper and glue! I love the stickers the counting bears, and the colorful rulers. But, I don't have as much freedom. I am there from 7-5 and don't ever leave. If I need to be off, it takes an act of Congress.

This job gives me freedom to come and go. I live just 15 minutes away. I am learning some new stuff. I don't feel emotionally drained when I come home every day. I don't feel like I go a billion miles an hour every day.

I don't know why I feel the need to have it figured out right now. I chastise myself constantly for being so wound up about it. I need to figure out how to just slow down and take things one day at a time.

Here is my thing- I want to go back to teaching. But what if I get back there and I feel stuck again, wishing I had stayed in the job that gives me freedom? How do you figure out where the line is between trying to deal with the things you just don't like about a job and realizing it's not for you?

Strike out!

  I went to my interview today...not so great.  Well the interview went great-the principal was really nice.  But she informed me that the position she had was already filled.  However, she let me know the reason she still interviewed me was so that she could let the other principals know about me.  She said she would send out an email after our meeting, letting them know about me and my credentials, etc.  I am not sure what will come of it.  

  I have kind of had the "wind let out of my sails" so to speak.  Honestly, I expected to get the job.  I mean, I thought who would be applying for this job this late in the year-me and 100 other people it turns out.  

 But I know it is ok. I am just not good at waiting things out, which is something I may have to do on this one.  I guess my dreaming of counting bears and plastic money will just have to stop for a bit.

Whirlwind...

In literally two days time, I have all but decided to go back to teaching, applied for a job, and been booked for an interview! I have an interview at 4:00 today and I am really nervous. Normally I am not that nervous, but the principal explained to me that they had a girl there that was doing a great job, though she would still like to talk to me. I feel like the fact that my grandfather, who I found out is friends with her, talked to her and she is just throwing me a bone. But, either way, I am glad to get to sit down and talk with her. It is still a good opportunity. Of course, that doesn't make me any less nervous!

New beginnings...in the middle

It has been a crazy past two days. Amazing the craziness that can go on in such little time! I will not go into the whole story, but there were a couple of happenings that went on to make me consider going back to teaching for real. Not bad happenings. Just happenings. So, I decided to just nonchalantly look into it, which resulted in my applying for a job, which ended up in my grandfather mentioning that the principal at the school is a good friend of his, which lead to him telling me he would talk to her when he is down there tomorrow for a ceremony! In one day, I am back on track for teaching. Literally not even 24 hours.
Of course, this is not to say that the decision has been made. Merely that I am seriously considering it. My biggest "hurdle", or fear, was that my dad would be upset. It was hard to say something to him. I was excited to somewhat "fit in" to his world and admitting that things in my life made me no longer fit in was hard. I was scared he would talk to me like a boss and tell me that I was crazy for wanting to leave this world of new found freedom. I was afraid there would be disappointed mostly. But it was amazing. He recieved my concerns with openess and understanding. He encouraged me to search to find what I needed to do, whether is be teaching or something else. I could not have been more relieved! It was so great to have him support what I was thinking and feeling.
And so here I am..at a crossroads. I am waiting to see how the application to the school pans out-it may be that I end up there or I may not. I am nervous for the outcome.

Publix Round Up-Tuesday the 15th

  I went to Publix today and, OH MAN, was it a good trip!  Here was what I got...

2 boxes of Kix cereal

4 jars of Newman's Own pasta sauce

2 boxes of Healthy Harvest pasta

1 Skintimate Shave gel

2 boxes green giant frozen veggies

2 boxes Stouffers french bread pizza (2 in each box, so 4 pizzas)

Charmin Toilet paper

Twix bar

1/2 lb of turkey

2 bags of grapes

Grand total...

$22.07!!!