This morning is no different, but I am spending this morning just in thought. I am thinking of how I feel right now. My basic feelings could be summed up as happiness. I am so happy with my husband. We are great. Before we got married, I read so many marriage books to "prepare" me for marriage. That didn't work. I struggled with things the books never mentioned! I panicked, that after all this prep, Adam and I were still fighting. There was lots of tension. After a year, it go better-MUCH better. It was AWESOME! But, we still have our days. Days where there is tension and I feel like we can't communicate. So recently, I have tried to focus on communicating better. For me that means being open with my feelings without beating myself up for feeling them or fearing I will look stupid to Adam. I have tried to do that as best as I can, and I find that I am getting better at it!
Us communicating better has made us that much better. It's just fear, I know that. But the more I practice, the easier it will get. All that to say, I am so happy to have Adam. He is a beyond fabulous husband. He is so patient and really tries to learn me and the things I am feeling. Sometimes he even knows what I am feeling without me even saying a word-I LOVE that one! He and I, even though we are so different, are perfect for each other. There honestly is no one better for me. I am in reflection today about how well things are going for us, and how I am so thankful for such a caring, kind husband. We still have lots to learn, but I know it is going to be ok and that we will learn it all just fine.
